22 days of writing —
22 days since I decided it was time for me to get back up again and all I can say is I’m so proud of myself.
From January to mid May I was truly struggling to grasp myself. I had created an almost robotic cycle and it seemed like I was just watching myself go through the motions. It was sad, and I was sad.
And I know it’s so annoying when you’re going through and depressive episode and someone suggests you just “stop being sad” or “be happy!” So I will not suggest that.
But the more I was vocal about how sad I was and truly felt like I had nothing at all to give, I decided I could try my best to choose to give to myself.
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In the last 22 days I have been:
Writing every single day no matter my mood
More intentional about being close to Cree. Snuggling up on him, Being vocal about what I
need, making sure I’m checking on his needs, and having yummy sex which increases my dopamine and over well being 🙂
Spending more time laughing with coworkers, because most of my time is spent in the office— i choose to make it the best I can
Walking every week day, 3 miles — never skipping. And it seems like the days where I really don’t
want to go is where I need it the most and end up doing past 3 miles
Taking my social business more seriously and landing brand deals 🙂
Been feeling more comfortable with my identity overall
Releasing myself from the heaviness of others and focusing on what I need
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I’ve been happy with my progress. While there’s always more to work on, I feel confident that I’m off to a good start. There’s a certain peace and accomplishment to setting a goal and everyday working towards it. To keeping my promises to myself.
It gives me pride.
Because I remember certain moments where I could easily make an excuse to not continue or press through.
But like I said, I decided it was my season so I’m doing everything I said I would
All my love
JMoore
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