Was able to spend the weekend exactly how I wanted.
A peaceful stillness spilled over from sleeping in past 6am. Saturday morning was accompanied by pretzeled legs and a warm embrace. I love being able to linger in bed, no agenda that forces me to hop up and go. Just taking moments to stare into each other’s eyes, listen to the birds play with their friends, and anticipate what the day will bring us.
During the week I make the morning smoothies, so it’s always extra special because when Cree makes it, you can actually feel the love.
This weekend reminded me of when we were on our honeymoon. Barcelona was the dreamiest moment in life, and that time we had together has a special place in my heart.
I’m a huge lover girl, I romanticize everything and hold on to all the memories, butterfly moments, and pretty much anything that makes my heart warm.
You know all the weird things you do when no one is around, and the feeling you get? Like everything is just right and how you want it? Being married to Cree feels just like that. I can make the weird noises, and the strange dances, cause disgusting smells, and do all the embarrassing things people tell you to keep to yourself.
I would say, that’s what one should look for when considering marrying.
There’s nothing better than knowing that my best friend is someone who will cut my weave out, tweeze out my in grown hairs, gently wipe off my makeup when im too drunk, and calm me down from a fully adult tantrum.
This weekend was full of deep in the belly laughs. Continuous reminders to not take life too serious and encouraging each other to be 100% ourselves. I’m grateful we are in a marriage that laughs, giggles, and extracts each others childish spirits.
With a life that’s full of heaviness, we are letting each other be.
Whatever that be IS.
Growing up I think we were both told that we could be “extra,” “loud,” or asked “why are you yelling?”
Those small comments from childhood to adulthood can feel like you have to change your personality with others. It makes you feel self conscious when really you were just excited about something.
Our marriage is about releasing any judgement or restriction that we felt others placed on us. You want to eat cereal out of the silver cooking bowl? Do it. Having a moment where you’re just so excited and want to ramble? Do it. Want to run through the house like a crazy person? Do it.
Embrace it all. That’s the love we focus on. Making each other feel safe in each others’ presence, in our arms, in our home. Taking action to heal our inner child.
These last two days were perfect. We walked ALOT, ate the food we wanted, shopped and shopped, laid around and laughed, watched shows and movies and tiktoks, held each other close.
People ask me how it feels to be married, and I would say this weekend is the feeling.
I thank God our lives aligned to find each other. I could never love another man like this. Never know another man like this.
Happy for the weekend. Happy for my man.
All my love
JMoore
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